An update...

Hi All!

I've been really silent for a while now...sorry about that! Life has been busy, full of ups and downs and happiness and sadness on this crazy journey! I started looking back at my old blog posts and MAN have I come a long way since I started writing!!!! I've had quite a few milestones since I last wrote, so let me share a few :) Just a reminder, this was the list of things I was looking forward to BEFORE the surgery that I posted on 21 September 2014:

April 2014 - Pre Op

1. I look forward to being a very cheap date! (and a very cheap drunk!)
2. I look forward to living my life free from obsessing about food (eventually!)
3. I look forward to looking in the mirror and being happy about what I see
4. I look forward to costume fittings without being worried about finding something that will fit
5. I look forward to shopping at the FRONT of clothing stores rather than at the "plus size" section
6. I look forward to going to the cinema and fitting comfortably in the seats
7. I look forward to flying without asking for a seat extension and not worrying about how much I'll encroach on someone sitting next to me

September 29 2014 - a few hours post op

8. I look forward to taking my doggie for walks very very often and not dreading it
9. I look forward to bushwalking with my husband
10. I look forward to many other things with my husband!!!! ;)
11. I look forward to strutting my stuff on stage in many TMS shows (in lots of fab parts that aren't "fat" parts)
12. I look forward to having children and running around after children!
13. I look forward to being 51 yrs old, and 52 yrs old and 53 yrs old, and 54 yrs old......
14. I look forward to b!@#s at work who wouldn't give me the time of day all of a sudden saying how great I look - and me promptly brushing them off for the ppl who were always there for me
15. I look forward to making new friends at bootcamps and gym classes and playing sports (even though I'm totally unco!)

About to leave the hospital 3 days post op

16. I look forward to the day when all the family members who ditched me realised that they completely missed out
17. I look forward to going to my 20 year high school reunion (if we have one) looking AMAAZINNGG
18. I look forward to eating real food again (in smaller doses)
19. I look forward to the day I reach my goal weight
20. I look forward to the day when I stand in front of that awful psychologist and give her the finger for telling me that I'm too emotionally messed up to have this surgery!

Ok, so lets have a look and see what I've been able to enjoy so far :)

- I look forward to being a very cheap date! (and a very cheap drunk!)
I've decided I've given up alcohol forever, so the drunk part won't happen again. However, I have eaten out several times and I always enjoy it so much more now because the focus is not on the food. I have a tendency to eat too fast in social sociations so I have to consciously slow down but other than that eating out is a pleasure :)

- I look forward to looking in the mirror and being happy about what I see
Believe it or not, at 98.8kgs I am already there.....I'm really really happy about my face now, I don't care about my body really, it's always going to look a bit like a melted candle (LOL) and that's ok. But my face.....I look in the mirror now and it's like I'm seeing myself for the first time. It's like, I look at myself and say "that's where you've been hiding!!!"

- I look forward to going to the cinema and fitting comfortably in the seats
I was able to tick this one off just after Christmas, but got to do it again two nights ago! :) I never sit in those seats now without a little thrill....

Learning to love me and my new workout gear!

- I look forward to flying without asking for a seat extension and not worrying about how much I'll encroach on someone sitting next to me
Done, done and DONE! end of May - how awesome is that!!! Flying is now a complete and total pleasure!!!! All I have to do now is pick my next destination!!!!

- I look forward to many other things with my husband!!!! ;)
I think the fact that I'm saying no comment is comment enough!!!!!

- I look forward to b!@#s at work who wouldn't give me the time of day all of a sudden saying how great I look - and me promptly brushing them off for the ppl who were always there for me
Well as it turns out, those who I thought were there for me weren't always there for me...I've actually reassessed a lot since the surgery, and I'm getting to know people who I didn't have an opportunity to get to know before :) the support I've had is AMAZING, and from some of the most unlikely of sources!!!!

- I look forward to making new friends at bootcamps and gym classes and playing sports (even though I'm totally unco!)
Ok, so I'm not really up to classes, but I do go to the gym regularly which is lovely, and I'm walking regularly which is nice too :)

- I look forward to eating real food again (in smaller doses)

All dressed up and hitting the dance floor!

Check, check and check! I eat food just like everyone, but just halved, or quartered doses LOL

But the biggest milestone of all - on the 14th of June 2015 I officially became a double digits girl! That's right peeps, no longer do I tip the triples, now I'm daring in doubles! :) :)

At the moment I'm struggling in my head with the slight increase in caloric intake - I've gone from averaging 850 calories a day to more like 950 and I hate that! But my dietician said I kind of need to have more protein but in order to do that I need more calories. I know in my HEAD that I need the calories to fuel me, but there's a part of me that misses the 600-700 calorie days!

And on that note, its time for tea :) Onwards and upwards!

Sunnier days ahead!!! 9 months post op and double digits!